Fuck..

He was talking about how people should go for the heart not for the height this afternoon... It was when Ivy was asking what type of people he's dated. Apparently age and height don't matter to him. What matters is the heart...

Does this mean that I still have a chance?

When he said this, I should have said something like "So, if I say I like you would you date me?" or something like that... But the moment has passed and now I won't ever have a chance like that... Besides, I don't think I would have ever said anything like that in the first place... I like my pride too much... And Ivy thinks I don't like him anymore... So yeah... Life sucks... Or just the way I live it is like a NOOB... -.-

I like him... I think.... The feeling is not as strong as before but it is there... I know I like him and yet, there are other factors that keep me from truly liking him to the point of love.

First are the things that my brother told me in the previous post. Second, my friends don't like him. Third, he has another prettier crush. Fourth, and this is going to sound ridiculous, but I think that if he does end up with me, it would ruin his street cred... And I'm sure that guy has a lot of street cred... Lastly, the fifth reason is I do not look good with him. He's fit and buff and I'm unfit and not buff... Or pretty... Or tall... Or skinny in any way... Why on Earth would he like a girl like me... All I'm good for is being a little sister...

FUCK IT!

I know I'm demeaning myself right now, but everything that I just wrote is true and there's nothing that I can do about it now... Besides... The biggest problem now is forgetting what my brother said... ><>