Undeserving

This is how I feel most of the time... Undeserving of the friends that I have and of the group that I hang out with...

Short, fat, unattractive- I attract the less attention in the group... I'm only known for being cute... I wanna be taller, skinnier, attractive.... Not just cute and chubby... That just doesn't cut it anymore...

I had second thoughts of performing with a bunch of friends just cause I don't think that I fit the characteristics that they are looking for... Which is all that I am not... It was the first practice yesterday... I was definitely the odd one out... I don't think that I would fit well in that group...

The older I get I guess I need to fit in more than I previously thought.

I am conforming..