Testing testing

I am testing a new app on my Itouch that allows me to blog on it... :3 it's really convenient... However, I'm just trying it out...




Ugh... I don't like the HTML that appears after I upload a picture.. So annoying... Anyway... So far so good.

The picture is a screenshot of the Star Trek series... :3 it is love... I know that it's quite geeky but whatever... :3

Wow...

Dude... I'm listening to all the Westlife songs and they're awesome... :D Shane sounds like he did all those years back... Lol... I still remember the time when Unbreakable was just released. Bern and I went nuts... or maybe it was just me?

Anyway, I'm not much of a ballad nut, I'm more to rock songs or songs that you can dance to... But listening to these guys... I admit that I'm starting to like ballads... I can relate to some... But not all of the songs... They're very deep...

:3

Westlife Nut...

:3 I was just sitting around today watching TV and being bored when my mind suddenly remembered the other day, when Bern and I went to the karaoke and sung our hearts out. It was fucking awesome and fun.... I got tired though.. Haha... Standing and singing is no easy feat... o.o I now know how hard it is for artists to perform on stage while standing let alone singing.... ><

Anyway, from that flashback in the karaoke, I remembered this one song from Westlife that I really liked. It's called 'When You're Looking Like That'. Here are the lyrics:

She's a 5 foot 10 in catsuit and bambi eyes
Everybody's who's staring wouldn't believe that this girl was mine
I should have know I was wrong
When I left her for a life in pity
But they say you never miss the water until it's gone

Guess I failed to love you
And you're taking it out tonight

[Chorus:]
How am I supposed to leave you now
When you're looking like that?
I can't believe what I just gave away
Now I can't take it back
I don't wanna get lost
I don't wanna live my life without you
How am I supposed to leave you now
When you're looking like that?

She's all dressed up for glamour and rock and roll
Wanna squeeze her real tight get out of this place
If only I could take control

But she is out of my reach forever
And just a week ago she lied next to me
It's so ironic how I had to lose just
To see that I failed to love you
And you're taking it out tonight

[Chorus]

I don't wanna forget you
I don't even wanna try
How am I supposed to walk on by when you're looking like that?

[Chorus x3]

And you can even download the song from the link I posted. I was singing it the whole day today and now it's stuck in my head. I am loving the song. Now... I want to reminisce all the Westlife songs... I used to be a real Westlife nut... Haha I still love them though, but I'm not as crazy about them as I used to be. :D They're songs are epic though. Definitely stays with you...

Anyways... This is me being random... Enjoy~ ^^

Ul-jjang?? O_O

They're giving shows to good looking people now... -.- How come I feel this is so shallow? Maybe because I am not, I repeat not an ul-jjang. And if any of you are wondering what the fuck an uljjang is, it's Korean and literally translates to Pretty/Handsome face. 'Ul' or also pronounced 'Eol', which is short for 'ulgul'/'eolgul' means face and 'jjang' is used to describe something that is good or the best. So I guess you can say ul-jjang is translated as the best face... o.o

Enough of the Korean lesson. I just got back from KL and am just discovering that the local Animax channel has broadened its horizon from not only Japanese anime and Japanese music, but now it also shows Korean variety shows like Ul-jjang Shi Dae which means The Best Face Generation. :P It's a bad translation but yeah... That's pretty much how you translate it. Animax also shows Korean Music Shows... I thought only the Korean channel, KBS World had Korean Music shows... o.o Apparently not. The channel also has many Korean dramas, some of which I have already watched. ^^

I don't know if it's a good thing that Animax is showing all this Korean stuff, but I think it should stay true to its roots as a Japanese anime channel. It shouldn't be other than that... STAY TRUE TO ANIME!

Anyway, this is not the point of my post. My point is talking about shows like Ul-jjang Shi Dae that apparently celebrates good-looking teenagers and put them on TV. I'm sure you've heard all that crap about keeping it real and just being yourself, it's pretty hard to do both when the media is sprouting crap like this at kids. I know it's a Korean show but Korean entertainment is becoming very popular these days. And if it's not Hollywood's tight requirements don't get the teens, then the Korean entertainment ideal will.

Besides, have you noticed? All those people talking about keeping it real and being yourself are said by people who can afford to be themselves? They're pretty and skinny or tall and handsome. What about us people who aren't like that? Will we survive the world out there as all these requirements are placed on us?

I'm suffering now... So it's pretty much safe to say, I will not survive... I am one of those weaker ones who act strong. I suck...

o.o But people just say you have to think positively. It's easy for them to say... They're not going through what I am... Assies... -.-

You'e no different...

You're my friend... My best friend... And I know that I'm supposed to follow some unwritten best friend code, which states that best friends don't keep things from each other.

And yet here I am. Posting my thoughts in another blog because you frequent my other one.

I read your latest post: Family Sucks. You were complaining about your mother complaining about her life and how your brother and your father don't want anything to do with your mother and like to see her miserable. You complained that they don't pay enough attention to you and said things like your father and brother are hypocrites. You said that they should pay more attention to you.

Isn't that hypocritical?

I don't know who's more full of themselves in your family. Your mother, your father, your brother or you? Though, I think after all you've told me whether on MSN, your blog or through our texts; you are the most narcissistic of them all.

YES YOU.

You told me your mother takes money from you because she doesn't have enough money. She asks for the money that your father gave you for that reason? She works as a headmistress in a huge school in KK! She probably makes more than my mother and she's a principal as well. That's just an excuse she's giving you. She's been spending all her money on useless things. You're her daughter, she should be giving you money. No matter how much she hates your father, that doesn't mean you have to be caught in the crossfire. Your father wanted to work things out with your mother. She was the one who asked for the divorce, she was the one who refused to consider his offer. He wanted to make things work with your mom because he still loved her. But your mother was already having an affair with this white guy from America. What the fuck... And you so passionately defend your mother... I don't get you.

You hate your father... Why?! He's like the coolest dad I've met. Sure he may have problems expressing his feelings (he's too cool for his own good) but he still sends you money every month, even if you are staying with your mum. When you were living with your father, he paid for everything. Your food, clothes, school, brand new handphones. And in all that time, your mother had never contributed. With the reason, she had no money. Open your eyes Bern... Your mom is a selfish bitch who only thinks about herself. You've seen it with your own eyes! She looks for a boyfriend despite her age... WTF....

You have no right to judge your brother. For all you know, he knows more than you do about your parents' divorce. Maybe he took your dad's side for a reason that neither of us know.

You're so blind to all of this. All you can do is worry about buying that Sony Ericsson touch screen, buying a brand new laptop and getting a car. You're no different from your mother. You're money minded. You're a year older than me and yet you have the mind of a 5 year old. Always it's me, me, me, me.

Newsflash buddy, it's not always about you...

Honestly

I think I like him..

But at the same time I think I don't..

Which is it?

I hope I don't like him..

I still remember the last guy I started liking..

But he's not like him..

He's much better..

Much innocent..

Michael... -sigh-

Undeserving

This is how I feel most of the time... Undeserving of the friends that I have and of the group that I hang out with...

Short, fat, unattractive- I attract the less attention in the group... I'm only known for being cute... I wanna be taller, skinnier, attractive.... Not just cute and chubby... That just doesn't cut it anymore...

I had second thoughts of performing with a bunch of friends just cause I don't think that I fit the characteristics that they are looking for... Which is all that I am not... It was the first practice yesterday... I was definitely the odd one out... I don't think that I would fit well in that group...

The older I get I guess I need to fit in more than I previously thought.

I am conforming..